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“stay out of the clutches of mediocrity.” -Charles Bukowski

my atomic stockpile

I cleaned my place the other day
for the first time in ten years
and found 100 rejected poems:
I fastened them all to a clipboard
(much bad reading).

now I will clean their teeth
fill their cavities and
give them their eye and ear examinations.
weigh them
offer blood transfusions
and send them out again into the sick world of poesy.

either that
or I may burn down your cities,
rape your women,
murder your men,
and enslave your children.

every time I clean my room
the world trembles in the balance.
that’s why I only do it once every ten years.

Charles Bukowski

So you want to be a writer?

if it doesn’t come bursting out of you
in spite of everything,
don’t do it.
unless it comes unasked out of your
heart and your mind and your mouth
and your gut,
don’t do it.
if you have to sit for hours
staring at your computer screen
or hunched over your
typewriter
searching for words,
don’t do it.
if you’re doing it for money or
fame,
don’t do it.
if you’re doing it because you want
women in your bed,
don’t do it.
if you have to sit there and
rewrite it again and again,
don’t do it.
if it’s hard work just thinking about doing it,
don’t do it.
if you’re trying to write like somebody
else,
forget about it.

if you have to wait for it to roar out of
you,
then wait patiently.
if it never does roar out of you,
do something else.

if you first have to read it to your wife
or your girlfriend or your boyfriend
or your parents or to anybody at all,
you’re not ready.

don’t be like so many writers,
don’t be like so many thousands of
people who call themselves writers,
don’t be dull and boring and
pretentious, don’t be consumed with self-
love.
the libraries of the world have
yawned themselves to
sleep
over your kind.
don’t add to that.
don’t do it.
unless it comes out of
your soul like a rocket,
unless being still would
drive you to madness or
suicide or murder,
don’t do it.
unless the sun inside you is
burning your gut,
don’t do it.

when it is truly time,
and if you have been chosen,
it will do it by
itself and it will keep on doing it
until you die or it dies in you.

there is no other way.

and there never was.

Charles Bukowski

462-0614

I get many phonecalls now.
They are all alike.
“are you Charles Bukowski,
the writer?”
“yes,” I tell them.
and they tell me that they understand my writing.
and some of them are writers
or want to be writers.
and they have dull and
horrible jobs
and they can’t face the room
the apartment
the walls
that night–
they want somebody to talk to,
and they don’t believe
that I can’t help them.
I don’t know the words.
they don’t belive
that often now
I double up in my room
grab my gut
and say
“Jesus, Jesus, Jesus
not again!”
they can’t believe
that the loveless people
the streets
the loneliness
the walls
are mine too.
and when I hang up my phone
they believe I have held back my
secret.

I don’t write out of
knowledge.
when the phone rings
I too would like to hear words
that might ease some of this.

That’s why my number’s listed.

–ciao, baby!